Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day!

I typically throw away everything I write .. in chat transcripts or on random napkins .. or even in the catalog book of Continental Airlines :P I do that because I don't consider myself a good writer unless I am writing software code in which case I am reasonably good at.

My sisters and my girlfriends pestered me that the least I could do is to type it somewhere so that I have a copy and telling others might result in more people writing beautiful poetry. I replied back to this reasoning with an argument that there is a poet in all of us .. via this shaayari:

jo dil mein jab dard bhara ho .. toh khud hi chhalak jaata hai ..
(when my heart is filled with pain ... it spills by itself)
jo palkon mein boond atka ho .. toh tasavvur-e-moti ban jaata hai ..
(when tear is stuck in my eye, it becomes a pearl in my imagination)
jo mann mein jo khyaal ho aap ka .. bas aiwayeen hi kalam chal jaata hai
(when I have your memories in my mind .. my pen moves by itself)
shaayari sunaane ka gunaah kyon karo .. jo har dil mein shaayar basta hai
(why should I do the crime of telling my poems to others .. when in each heart there is a better poet)


One reasoning that blew me against the above was it might inspire someone else who is aspiring but hasn't worked at it. And inspiration would lead to motivation which would lead to more people to write more beautiful poetry. More so if I write in English a bigger audience would be able to read it .. Well .. only if the poem is good enough ..

Hence in the spirit of Valentine's Day I write a poem which I won't throw but just type out on my blog. Let me know if it is bad or good or okay.

I love the way you love me
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I love the way you lie to me only to make me feel good
I love the way you shout at me only to make me perfect

I love the way you hurt me only to make me feel strong
I love the way you slap me only to make me feel owned

I love the way you ignore me only to make me feel missed
I love the way you bite me only to make me feel LOVED

I love the way you push me only to make me earn it
I love the way you scold me only to make me learn it

I love the way you make me cry only to feel secure
I love the way you cry for me only to keep me yours

I love the way you fool me there is something in your eyes
I love the way you get me close only to be kissed I realize

I love the way you hit me only to make me grab you
I love the way you pull me only to make me kiss you

I love the way you dump me only to make me burn
I love the way you make love only to make me return

I love the way you ask me how do I like the most
I love the way I reply you: YOU answer that first

I love the way you say to me do I have it with me
I love the way I tell you I’m alwayz ready baby!

Call drop on AT&T

An extremely emotional talk was about to reach its climax when it got dropped just around 3 AM. I found it so painful and was furious about it. I tried calling again, it didn’t work and I thought that maybe the person on the other side went out of reach. I decided to question my hypothesis and called my own number to reach my voicemail. To my surprise even that was not reachable! Why don't I change from AT&T to a better network? Restarted blackberry .. didn’t help. Took out battery and restarted again .. didn’t help either. I started thinking of alternate ways .. maybe GoogleTalk .. no she can’t install anything on her corporate laptop .. damn why didn’t I buy her a new one! Let me get online to see if I can use Skype to call on her cellphone. wtf .. I forgot my Skype password. Where to get it from? Clicked on Forgot password. Checked in my gmail account. No email! Where did it send the Forgot password email to? Checked to figure that it sent to my age-old yahoo email account. Tried to login there. Damn it! I don’t remember the password on that account either. Why the hell on earth do I change my password ever .. I for sure know that nobody has time to hack on my personal account. Anyways .. did a forgot password on Yahoo too .. it sent to my gmail this time fortunately .. thank God! opened up my yahoo account expecting to see Skype and wtf there is not even a single email there .. it seems yahoo removed all emails once it was unsued for some time. Sent the Skype forgot password again to get the password email to yahoo. Used that to open Skype. Ran Skype. No money in the account. Put money into it online. So happy to see it get started but wait a second it got stuck.. had to kill the application. Somehow just couldn’t make the call from it. The Skype app just hung! I am the kind who never gets angry .. however, I smashed the Bold on the wall .. then on the floor.. stomped on it .. threw it everywhere I could .. picked up .. and threw it again .. finally decided that I would go to office (@330 AM!) to give a call from there .. and voila .. I get a call on my phone .. it suddenly started working! :)